The American West forms the scenery around me now and our springlike weather pattern is readying us for the brutal summer heat of the Central Valley.
Baxter Bear and I both miss the outdoors at night- the sounds and breezes were mostly refreshing in our tent and we knew it was an adventure when they weren’t . Now, in the comfort of a pretty bedroom, I leave the windows wide open and I make sure there’s no radio or TV blasting in here.
The sound of silence is beautiful but it’s not the only beautiful sound I miss outdoors….I miss the crickets and cicadas at night as well as the birds in the morning. With open windows in my bedroom at night, I can still hear the birds sing in my neighborhood…but not like I can in the forest.
All these thoughts of weather, natural beauty and silence are not my only preoccupation at the moment. In fact, they are all a side line in my difficult quest for meaning, engagement and productivity on all fronts. They are my companions on breaks- both in my head and under my feet.
At present, I use my computer, phone, radio and TV during the day to connect with industry, politics, current events and culture. My runs, swims or walks are the only times when I can recreate the peace of my journey.
In contrast, my journey through the South allowed me to use all my senses while disconnecting from technology, world events and the past so I could reconnect with the world on a deeper and more personal level.
Is one goal and place more important than the other? No- I think not. And if I can someday bring my goals together so they will all happen more regularly…then I’ll be happier and so will my bear. Honestly- happiness was never exactly my goal before…
But I don’t know where it is.